Things to do instead of

Suicide!
1) Write a letter to yourself  explaining why you  are feeling the way you are. Address it to you in the future, seal it and mark it do not open until and pick a day a year from now. or five years. Then make it your goal to get to that date to see what has changed.
2) Call a friend. Call five friends. Call people that you are not sure are your friends.
3)Go for a run.
4) Make a list of people that will be affected by your not being here. The list may surprise you.
5) ANYTHING ELSE ~~

Obviously suicide has touched my world recently and I cannot process the whole thing.It has affected so many people that I know, it has created a ripple similar to the one that is created by tossing  a rock into a pond. I hurt for the person who committed the act, I hurt for the person that was first on the scene, I hurt for the family and friends, and the community that lost a treasure.

For those kids out there that don't think they are a treasure I want you to know you are wrong. We all have something to contribute to this world, and no matter what anyone tells you You are amazing. No matter how tight the darkness holds you, it will let go. It will get better! It may not seem it, and these words may have been repeated to you so much you don't hear them any more, but it is the truth. You are a bright shining star and you are here for a purpose. You have a reason to be, and not one single reason for leaving in such a permanent fashion.  It may seem like the only answer, it is not.

  My suggestions may sound flip or nonsensical in the face of something so serious, but it is not my intention. at all.  So many people are affected by something like this;
Parents~~ even the ones you think don't care
Siblings~~even the ones you are sure you hate or that you think hate you.
Friends~~ want to know why you didn't let them help you. What they could have done to make you not do it. What clue did they miss that would have helped them to stop you? Why didn't you lean on them, trust their friendship to help you through this
Neighbors~~they want to help but don't know what  to say to your family and friends
The postman~~ yeah! even the post man. Delivering a piece of mail with your name on it to the people that are grieving. Knowing he has to deliver it, knowing it will probably hurt someone in your house.
Anyone you have come into contact with that remembers your name. It affects them all, in some way.


I am pretty sure this blog is still new enough to not be read by many if any at all, but I hope that it finds its way to anyone that needs a friend. Anyone that needs a shoulder or an ear, or someone to just say it will be okay.Yes, you can't see that when the pain consumes you so much that this looks like it is your only answer. That is why I have written it down for you. To look at. To remember. To help you. You are loved. You are worth life and joy and please please don't do it.......